When I Surrendered Control

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Three years ago my life changed when I relinquished control to God.  Until that time, I was overwhelmed, discouraged, confused and tired. My marriage had failed; I had a very demanding job which consumed me and negatively affected the balance in my life.  More importantly, as a working professional, I struggled with the demands of motherhood – and in my case they were especially stringent because my son had special needs, was struggling in school and at home, adapting to a single parent household. All this was happening amidst the noise of life’s smaller trials – all culminating to make one stressed out woman.

Spiritually, I was also struggling to find God’s will for my life.  Having a purpose driven life was important to me and at that time I did feel like I was living a reactive life instead of a proactive life.  I had a plan for my life; I had goals to accomplish that plan; yet I still felt that my life was out of focus.  I was at a crossroads and felt a sense of urgency in my spirit. I had also been filling my life at that time with anything I could hear or read on Finding and Fulfilling God’s Purpose. I learned that the key to inner peace and truly finding and living God’s will was to let go and to let Him truly take control. As our creator, He knows what is best for us and He calls us to surrender to Him.

The new year is always a time for self evaluation. Questions like   – Am I on the right path?; Where am I going?; Where will I be in X number of years?; How will I get there?, flood our minds.  Some choose to make their own way by placing their faith in a well thought-out plan that they have carved for themselves; others live casually, reacting to things as they come up, in their own way and then there are the rare few that choose to place their  trust, cares and desires in the One that knows all – Jesus Christ.

Three years ago I made a life altering decision to surrender full control of my life to Jesus Christ.  Today, He is in control of my life and is orchestrating all the events in my life (the good and the bad), ALL for my good – because I love Him and I genuinely seek to fulfill His will for my life.  There have been some bad things but there have been many good things that show me He is at work in my life.  Above all, the one fruit that has grown and flourished in my life is peace.  It is a peace that passes my own understanding and has given me a newness of life.  It resonates strongly within me because I can rest in Him, knowing that He knows all and has everything under His control.

Psalm 37: 4-7: Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him.