Sound Like a Broken Record?
I can only imagine what I sound like to the Lord every time I go before Him with the same sin, the same struggle, the same failure. “Lord, I’m so sorry—so sorry—so sorry—so sorry—forgive me—forgive me—never again—again—“well, you get my point. I sound like a broken record. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to ask for forgiveness for the same sin, only to be entrapped by it again. Does this sound familiar—-or am I the only one out here on a limb, all by myself? When I find myself having to face God again to confess the same sin, I tend to feel defeated because of the utter disappointment in myself. I can’t help but think that I let my Heavenly Father down, yet again, and that hurts me. No one wants to disappoint the ones they love. When we love someone, we crave their approval. I love my Lord and I long for the day when I will hear Him say to me “Well done, good and faithful servant” (Matthew 25:21)
When I commit the same sin, time and time again, am I really a disappointment to God? As an All-Knowing God, I’m sure He already knows my actions before I do them. He knows my thoughts, my words and my deeds, even before they come to be. Yet, in spite of my flawed ways, He loves me and He is faithful to forgive me over and over again, “not seven times, but seventy-seven times” (Matthew 18: 21-22).
As the mother of a young boy that is a repeat offender of the same mistakes, I still lovingly accept his apologies and his countless promises to never “do it again”. I know that he will commit the same offense again but I love when he admits his wrongdoing and humbly comes to me to make amends. More importantly, I love him unconditionally and he could never ‘out-sin’ my love for him. If I could love this way, how much more so is the love of our Father in heaven!
We should consistently strive for righteousness (1 Peter 2:24) but when we sin, and we will, we shouldn’t wallow in guilt or condemnation. Sin separates us from God and as much as we may think we sound like a broken record, God wants to hear from us when we’ve fallen; He wants us to come to Him so that through repentance and forgiveness, we can be restored and reconciled to Him.
Isaiah 1:18: “Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.”