Sound Like a Broken Record?

I can only imagine what I sound like to the Lord every time I go before Him with the same sin, the same struggle, the same failure. “Lord, I’m so sorry—so sorry—so sorry—so sorry—forgive me—forgive me—never again—again—“well, you get my point.  I sound like a broken record.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to ask for forgiveness for the same sin, only to be entrapped by it again. Does this sound familiar—-or am I the only one out here on a limb, all by myself? When I find myself having to face God again to confess the same sin, I tend to feel defeated because of the utter disappointment in myself. I can’t help but think that I let my Heavenly Father down, yet again, and that hurts me. No one wants to disappoint the ones they love. When we love someone, we crave their approval.  I love my Lord and I long for the day when I will hear Him say to me “Well done, good and faithful servant” (Matthew 25:21)

When I commit the same sin, time and time again, am I really a disappointment to God? As an All-Knowing God, I’m sure He already knows my actions before I do them.  He knows my thoughts, my words and my deeds, even before they come to be.  Yet, in spite of my flawed ways, He loves me and He is faithful to forgive me over and over again, “not seven times, but seventy-seven times” (Matthew 18: 21-22).

As the mother of a young boy that is a repeat offender of the same mistakes, I still lovingly accept his apologies and his countless promises to never “do it again”.  I know that he will commit the same offense again but I love when he admits his wrongdoing and humbly comes to me to make amends.  More importantly, I love him unconditionally and he could never ‘out-sin’ my love for him. If I could love this way, how much more so is the love of our Father in heaven!

We should consistently strive for righteousness (1 Peter 2:24) but when we sin, and we will, we shouldn’t wallow in guilt or condemnation.  Sin separates us from God and as much as we may think we sound like a broken record, God wants to hear from us when we’ve fallen; He wants us to come to Him so that through repentance and forgiveness, we can be restored and reconciled to Him.

Isaiah 1:18: “Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.”

About Kaleb

I am a single working mother with a love for the Lord Jesus Christ and spreading His message. To browse my writings is to peek through the window to my soul and to the heart of what really matters in my life. I am candid, honest and open especially for the edification and encouragement of others.

6 Responses to “Sound Like a Broken Record?”

  1. aruna chandrasekharan Reply October 24, 2011 at 9:45 am

    Perfect… Great Post… Thnx Kaleb…

  2. Beautiful Kaleb. Parenthood is such a wonderful window into the soul of God. Now I understand how much He loves me and wants a relationship with me. My mistakes and failures are already forgiven, much like I have already forgiven my children when they make mistakes. What an awesome God we have!

  3. awesome post kaleb. thanks for posting. god spoke to me through this. I fail over and over again. struggling with the same kind of sin. yes now am sure that he is waiting to forgive and wash. . we are still covered by his BLOOD. . .:) :)