Reflection-A Woman’s Pain

As one looks and reflects on the past, it is then when we have to ask
Where did I feel the aches…the aches that resulted in so very many of
my mistakes? For we certainly reap from what we sow, and Your desire
for us is that we should grow. Grow in Jesus; grow from good seed,
not to be choked by the thorns and the weeds.

As I look at myself in the mirror and reflect upon my face, I look deep within me
and see the very thing I hate. You show me that deep within the
pain of my heart, are the aches I feel that have torn me apart.

Jesus You have gently tugged at my soul, in order that I might allow
You in…..in order to make me whole. You knock on the door and ask to
let You in, so You can reason with me and wash away my sin. The sin of
condemning myself and others who have hurt me in my life; confirming
although You understand, it is not of You and is as deadly as a
knife. It cuts at my core and into my soul trying to destroy me and
keep me from being whole. You show me how the enemy will use others
to cause much hurt, and if that is ineffective then he will try to use
the reflection we see; hoping that…that will work.

You tell me that You want to get deep within the sores, not to cause
more pain, but to give me more…more of Your Spirit that heals from
deep within those parts, not covering what’s really going on deep
inside my heart. You tell me that this fight is not for cowards; and
is very hard to do, but if we would lay it at the cross; the rest is
up to You.

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